Today I Imagine Myself Incapable of Love

“Today I imagine myself incapable of love” I said.
He raised an elegant brow and asked. “Why is that so?”
“So that the world goes around me while I am numb.” I said stating the obvious.
“And what do you hope to achive in being numb,” he asked puzzled.
I sighed my impatience.
“I hope to achive a state of indifference,” I said matter-of-factly.
“Ah, you hope to be devoid of any emotions,” he said as if comprehending.
“Exactly,” I said enthusiastically, glad that he finally understood.
Silence.
“ But why do you wish to be indifferent,” he asked, frowning in confusion.
“Because I cannot risk pain,” I said exasperated.
“Ah….”he said.
Silence.
“But do you honestly think it is worth it?” he asked.
I nodded.
“Think again,” he persisted. “You can do better than that.”
I sighed.
Shook my head and turned to walk away.
“I was just imagining myself incapable of love.” I said.
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