Of Memories and Decisions

Sometimes there will be moments when the sense of being alone just hits you.
It evokes in you a deep longing for the things that used to be.
And in your solitude you think that you have lost your past.
But the thing there is that –
You don’t have to blame yourself if you haven’t had the opportunity to say goodbye to those people and things.
Because you don’t have to say goodbye to them in the first place -
You don’t really lose them either.
Because you have the memories -
One day you will come home.
And then you could do the things you did before again.
Be with the people you value the most.
But now you know you are different.
You have grown better and gained more -
Because you have known the feeling of being away from home –
You could learn to value things and people now.

They said that –
You really couldn’t tell how important a thing for you –
Until you’ve lost it.
But you can choose not to lose it.
You can consider being temporarily away from it -
From all the people you love…
Yet knowing that you will come home to these things –
And to them whom you love most –
Should keep hope burning in your heart.
What should motivate you to keep going –
Is the knowledge that –
YOU WILL COME HOME.
And when you do –
YOU WILL NEVER HAVE TO LEAVE AGAIN.

Going for your dreams is tough –
Even more when you have to be away –
But sometimes you just have to choose to go –
So you will not have to regret –
And wonder of what-ifs, if-only and could haves…

You must go for your dreams wherever it will take you –
For there will be a time when it strikes you that finally you have enough.
Until then you will know –
That when you come home –
With your dreams fulfilled –
You know in your heart –
That you are home at last…

For Papa
Cy04.29.06